My home-life has been very rough, patchy, off and on lately. My emotional state has been a freaking roller-coaster. In December of 2010 and beyond that, that was my life all of the time. I couldn’t get past it. I could have been depressed, but I felt I was too much of a woman on the come up to even entertain that. I moved to New York in April 2010 to get away from “it all”. I needed a mental vacation. Unfortunately, I still took some of what I was running from to New York. I needed a change, break through or break down. None of that came until December of 2010 when I discovered positive affirmations and a book/documentary called The Secret.
I became obsessed with working on me from the inside out. The affirmations and the documentary gave me a new brain. I noticed changes in my life and my over all happiness. I was happy just because. In March of 2011 I moved back to MD with a new found sense of self and I wanted to share it with EVERYBODY. Of course as time moved on, I got busy with working, working on a healthier life and a new relationship.
I seem to have lost my way a bit. I feel like I’ve left my happiness in the hands of someone else, when its me who should be carrying it. I hate to feel that way. Recently, I came across a book by Iyanla Vanzant called “Peace, From Broken Pieces. How to get Through, what your going Through.”
This book could not have come at a better time. But, I love Iyanla too. She speaks from a spiritual (not religious), point of view. She carefully teaches you and breaks down your troubles as if she was teaching abc’s to a 3 year old. I look up to her a lot. If common sense had a face, it would be Iyanla. I am quitely transitioning back into the woman I became 3 years ago. I am going to study, be MORE patient than I have already been and hit the reset button on my life. But most importantly, I am going to take my happy back.